Tutorials are piling,
quiz getting nearer,
Dip getting frustrating
and yet CNY is coming...

What is the meaning of this?

I should have knew it was coming, but i didn expect reality to struck so soon.

I guess i really do not have any more energy to debate with myself what is the right thing to do.
i am just going to move forward blindly and wait for reality to occur.
perhaps i am getting sick of " what if?"

i am missing him.

Hope time would pass faster and life would turn for the better,

I'll be praying for the both of us.

O boy.. i am so tired.

It is not just about my 26 AUs, i think it is more than that.
It is the kind of feeling that i feel when i am so disappointed in myself,
disappointed when i succumb to temptation,
disappointed that i am behaving this way.

I know i need to be clear about what i want,
where i want to be.
But do anyone know the fear i faced...

Why am i reacting this way?
fear that i will hurt others or myself,
or that i hate changes.

feeling remorse?
maybe i really am...

so much as i tell myself to go with the flow,
i know i hate that feeling...
and i hate feeling so weak emotionally.

i am so tired, so sick of everything....
pls give me courage to carry on....

walk on, girl...
keep going forward, dont look back

“Just because she makes fun of herself doesn’t mean shes completely comfortable with herself. Just because she walks alone to class doesn’t mean she doesnt have any friends. Just because she laughs all the time doesn’t mean shes annoying. Just because people talk about her, doesn’t mean she likes it. Just because she gets a lot of attention, doesn’t mean she is an attention freak. Just because she gets things from her parents doesnt mean she is a spoilt brat. Just because she is a daydreamer, doesn’t mean she never pays attention. Just because she jokes all the time, doesn’t mean she can’t be taken seriously. Just because she smiles all the time, doesnt mean she is always happy. Just because she is quiet sometimes, doesnt mean she is sad. Just because she tries her hardest all the time, doesn’t mean its gonna pay off. Just because she is called names for saying something dumb or being annoying, doesn’t mean she can keep taking it.”

via : Happy thing's tumblelog

Seeing those pictures really made my heart melts...

All the best, make it the best memories of your life! =)

I can't help but feel that i need more excitement in my life....

I hope to have a white Christmas. The gorgeous scenery, the warmth from my love ones.

It is the simple things in life, that is the most comforting.

Omy.. Less than one month to go. I feel to unprepared...

Thanks for everything. I really hope the next one year will be easier for you.

Although i do miss it, i am glad it is over.
All the best guys.

There are just other stuff i need to work for,

It might not be the nicest thing, but i am glad i did it. =)

This is the time where i hope i can throw everything aside,
sit at one corner and watch people walk by.

This is the time where i hope i could be happy just by being with myself

This is the time i hope i was a little more useful in the things i do.

& this is the time i pray i won't regret walking down this path.

Smile, and the world smiles with you.

I AM SO PROUD OF HIM.

CONGRATS DEAR! =)

Once again. i am worried for him.
How come i am so uselses?

What else can i do when self encouragement is no longer useful?
What will you do when every breath you take, you feel yourself going one step back?

It is a new semester, a new beginning.

3 months of holidays, 3 actual camps & countless trainers camps.

Camp Insinyur was a success,
Made many friends,both juniors and senior,
It somehow made my life in uni more complete,
Thanks guys! (Aragorn, Phoenix) Love you guys!


Hall Camp was interesting but nevertheless tiring, Thanks You! Hope to see you guys more often in hall!


LTC was fun... It feels different, after the one year break. But nevertheless it is good that i am contributing back to the secondary school, Well it is a kind of " service Learning" isnt it? =)
Thank you all campers and fellow instructors for making this journey as fun as it had been, Through sweat and tears, i am glad that LTC 09 was a success and hope it will always be. Close friendship is forged and of course not forgetting one couple. Eheh. They are so cute!

Need to get my life back to mugging... 4.0! woohoo.

I need to believe.

Vulnerable?