Tutorials are piling,
quiz getting nearer,
Dip getting frustrating
and yet CNY is coming...

What is the meaning of this?

I should have knew it was coming, but i didn expect reality to struck so soon.

I guess i really do not have any more energy to debate with myself what is the right thing to do.
i am just going to move forward blindly and wait for reality to occur.
perhaps i am getting sick of " what if?"