Life have not been kind to me this year...
I am feeling all sort of strain and yet relief seems no where near.
It seems like every part of my life is going wrong,
While i try my best to focus on bits and pieces that are comforting,
the cold hard reality always hit me right on the face,
making me wonder how long i can actually pull all these together.

No doubt, it is my fault, i should have been more certain on my stand,
i would be a happier person,
but right now, there is nth i can do but to move forward.
i really hope i can see the rainbow at the end of all these saga.
i am making my parents worried and i am not liking it.
but sometimes, it is just harder to even put on a false front at home.
perhaps i am really not strong enough.
not strong enough to be able to cope with everything at the same time.
it is just too mentally draining.

i am not liking it.