lots of questions, lots of doubts, lots of thoughts
Has i underperformed?
or is this task just not suitable for me?

was it me that things happened this way?
was it why things went out of control?
but was it a failure?
no, i rather not believe it this way.
let just say, it didnt went as well as it should be.

Everyone of us have a certain set of personalities,
we have our special way of expressing leadership, as i choose to believe.
but what does this task requires?
was it something that i doesnt have?

Was it the batch or was it our way of handling them?
but i guess we tried.
i think we are all tired, tired of keeping up to the expectations.
No. was our answer

but y was i there?
the passion, the desire to return.
the changes that it has made in me over the years,
i will never forget.
these were the reasons.
simple yet strong.

boundaries broken,
limits stretched.
and yet
success was still far from reach.

comments passed, emotions flood
i appear emotionless,
but was i?
i was concerned, worried
i experienced many times
wondered y it never show?

comparisions was made,
and i felt lacking behind.
Did they regret i want to know?
yet fearful of the answer i never asked.

Everything's over
Memories left.
both happy and sad.
but nevertheless forgiving.

it made a mark in me,
something i will never forget.