Myself?

ya.. recently things hasnt really been going well... well at least that what i thought... somehow.. i sort of began to lost track of who exactly am i?Maybe.. there are just too much that i want to become that i began to forgot who i exactly was? Excuse? No.. it is the truth....

Sometimes... i really hope that i would be better in some ways... more like a gal...maybe.... i feel so lonely sometimes... i seems to be stuck in my own world... a world that traps all my sorrows , troubles and problems that i dont want others to know.... Maybe i am thinking too much... too much that i had began to lost my directions in life....

I know i got to improve in some area... i want to do so... but i seems to be always getting the things wrong.... it seems to be wrong all the time.. making me feel that nth was right in the first place.... haiz.. what that? i want to be a better person.. a person that i had always wanted to be..... a person that would stand up for my own thinking and rights.... one that always believes.....i hope one day this would happen... NO! i shall not hope... it would happen.. only then will i managed to be myself... Let the day come soon...

Ya.. i want to be a gal.. have the thinking of a gal... yea but dont think wrong ya... i am a gal... but somehow someone told me that i dont have behave or think like a gal at all.... haiz.. more skirts maybe... i Will try to change.. i promised.. for the better future....

Be myself...